God's way or my way in God's name...

Do we really want to do God's will or have we figured out the best way we want to serve God and are trying to make that happen? That question is at the heart of our trip here in Central America. God speaks to us through his scripture and our circumstances. Am I paying attention to what He is telling me? Like Samuel, in the midst of confusing circumstances am I saying, "Speak Lord, your servant is listening" or am I looking at my circumstances and planning my way to the destination of my choice based on weighing my talents, money, friends and family. Am I truly following in abandon for the sake of his purposes or am I guarding what I consider to be mine and seeking what I think would be best?

In the midst of my circumstances I will take the time to stop and say, "Speak Lord, Your servant is listening..."

Looking for God or comfort...

Central America is not short on inconveniences, discomfort and difficulties. How those affect my prayer life reveal my understanding of growth. The book of James teaches us to consider it pure joy when we face trials. From where I stand on my faith journey, trials are far from a joyful thing. I frequently find myself trying to mitigate them or plan them away. Some I pay extra money to remove and when all the above doesn't work I try to pray them away missing the gifts they bring with them.

I find myself praying for God's blessings when really I am praying for my comfort. These "blessings" are frequently the things that get me to NOT pay attention to God. When I am comfortable my dependence upon him is diminished. It is my need that draws me to him. It is the trials and the struggle that bring growth. Ps 13 teaches us to pray for God's empowering to grow through not the removal of difficulties.

Do I want a trouble free life or do I want to be like Christ...I cannot have it both ways.